Yup, I didn’t follow the schedule. Of course I didn’t follow the schedule.

So I track my progress by tallying up my daily productivity over a week. For the past two weeks, it was 4 & 5 out of seven. But this week…

It’s not my fault! I was doing great because I had a routine, I had my days mundane and planned out.

BUT THEN, they (*cough* government *cough*) decided they’re gonna erase literal TWO MONTHS of school, so now all the big projects that were planned to be spread out during those months is now supposed to be done in almost 3 weeks.

3 weeks. mY cLaSs HaS tO mAkE 4 DreSSes IN THREE FREAKING WEEKS!!

PLUS we’re somehow supposed to be collaberating, doing homework and taking tests like normal, AND making presentations.

I’m so mad I’m fuming I’m u p s e t

I should be studying, but I don’t want to. My mentality is something like: “stressed? need to do A to Z?? ok, no problem. Do nothing and stress out even more when the deadlines are just hours away.”

It’s such a dreading feeling, to have this heavy…cloud of…worry that you could literally feel inside your chest, just above your heart.

I remember after the mid-terms, we had a 2-week vacation. All vacation I had that feeling like: “Is it okay to rest?” “I tried very hard on my exams, but it’s still not enough. This means I don’t deserve to have fun, right?” “Is there something I should be doing?”

The more I think about it, the heavier it feels and I get 10x lazier.

I really don’t think overworking students like this is okay.

*sigh* I digress..

Thanks for reading this >-<

xoxo, Ran.